Sleeping nude or not?

Last two nights, I was experimenting my sleeping types.Could I say "types"? Who cares? I usually sleep with my clothes on including my undies. But, I was getting bored and wanted to try something new. Just to let you, that I am not staying alone, so it's bit risky when I have to sleep naked. I can't imagine their reactions when they found out since I can't lock my door.haha Ok first night I tried to wear nothing at all. Only my skin that kept me warm and of course I surrounded myself with a thick blanket. It is near winter now so a blanket is necessary. Ok bedtime was great. I felt "free", it was very comfortable. And I can feel my body feel the tension of being "free" causing me an erection before I entered to my dream. The best thing still wasn't ended yet. In the middle of the night, I felt the excitement in my body (Read: arousal) and I was sure that I had my wet dream again. Yeah...again..I had a wet dream too the night before (read my Un- gay wet dream). So it was like two times in a row. I must say it is quite rare now since I don't remember the last wet dream. I must say that masturbation played an important role that I didn't have much wet dream in the last few months. The next day, I wore only my boxer and nothing much more exciting than wearing nothing at all. So, I should say...sleep more in nude and will make your days better and only to remember to lock your door...

Sweet morning kiss

You have to see how the boys kissed. ARggghh So sweett..

Un-Gay Wet Dream and "HIM" on the train

I had a wet dream last night. Surprisingly, I wasn't dreaming about guys which I always had. This time, it was a girl. It was a bit unreal for me since I never had dreamt a lady that could wet my boxer. However, it was only a dream. Or maybe it was a sign that inside of me still have sexual tendency towards women? Who knows...Once again, it was only a dream.

I saw "him" again today on the train. He looks like Lee Hom, very handsome Taiwanese singer. He sat in front of me and there was a single moment that we stared at each other. OMG... I felt the rush in my body. He was too good looking. He is definitely my type. My heart was melting in the middle of sunny day. I have seen him three times. Exptecting to meet him again. It was more than enough just by looking at him and I could say he made my day.

My Final Fantasy

If he were the fireman, I would definitely set my house on fire.

Gay Friend

I wanted to post something today. But, I didn't know what to write on the blog. Until, I read my first ever comment. Honestly, I felt a bit "low" when I noticed in the first three days, there was no single comment posted on my blog. I thought maybe my posts weren't so "exciting" that people just visited and went away just in a nick of times. No worries. I still received one precious comment from Ian. A comment that keep me motivated to write another one. He advised me that I shouldn't worry too much cause I am still young and try to find gay friends. Gay friends...yes gay friends....I am gay but I don't have any gay friends. Ok now you would think that I am a lousy, bad and C grade gay boy. Maybe yes...maybe no. Actually I have reasons that I don't have any. I spent my whole academic years from kindergarten to high school in one of the smallest city in Indonesia. So being gay was a taboo. There was no single conversation about gay in my school. I am not lying. People think everybody is straight. Gay is the word only mentioned in modern countries. So, I don't remember any gay couple that I knew in my place. That is why it is affecting me on how I handle my gay life. I don't go to gay places. It is because I am scared, I am not ready to let people know that I am gay and I am too stupid to expect something good coming in my gay life without doing anything that make me really "enter" into the gay world. The only thing that make me gay are visiting gay porn websites and becoming horny when I see hot guys. That's all. Yeah, I am still young, I still have the chance but when I have to grab the chance. The only place that I try to lure guys' attentions is in public transports. And you don't want to know how I made the moves because if they were successful I won't be here nagging about my life. Talking about "nagging". I feel that my blog is all about frustrations. Maybe something good will happen next. Hope so...

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Gay in a family

First of all, I love my family. There is nothing in this world that can replace their positions. As I am the only son and raised in Asian family background. I would be expected to marry a wife, have babies and carry on the family name to the next generations. Considering I am gay, should I able to carry on this task? I can't imagine what my family will react when they know that I am gay. I still remember that my mom once told me if she had a son that was gay, she would go crazy. Mom, I really love you and I don't want anything happen to you, but I am the one that might cause you go insane. Will you still love me when you know the truth? To my Dad, he is the everything that keeps this family survive. He is strong. Anyway, something happened between him and I for the past few years and now we are getting better and better. I would expect that my Dad won't be so frustrated as my mom if he knew that I was gay. Because he always say he will be happy as long as I am happy so do my mom. Just I think my mom won't accept the fact easily. For my sister, I won't worry so much as she has already had her own family to worry about. So the only concerns is: should I act as a heterosexual just to keep my family knows that they have a straight boy in the house? Living in a denial is nothing but struggling.